Today I woke up with a sick feeling in my stomach. It has been this way each morning for at least a week. I have known what’s coming and I am anything but prepared. This week is packed full off anniversaries. Each one even worse than the one before it. And my heart just isn’t… Continue reading How Could I Say Goodbye?
The first snow storm of the season blanketed Casper earlier this week. As I watched the snow fall, silently covering the city in white, my mind took me back in time to the first Casper snow four years ago. Ironically, just as I am this week, I was fighting my first cold of the season… Continue reading Last Snow
October is by far my least favorite month of the entire year. It is a month that has been filled with tragedy and heartbreak for me. The 22nd of October is the day my daughter died. And this year marks 4 years since she took her last breath in my arms at 20 months and… Continue reading Don’t Forget The I Love You
Guest Blog Written By: Mark Caldwell (Olivia’s Paternal Grandfather) A little over four years ago a friend of mine whom I worked with at a country club in Reno said these words to me. Eric Dye was a former Marine who had seen duty overseas in Iraq and was home following his dream of becoming a… Continue reading I give you my word
Have you ever tried to explain the unexplainable to someone? We all have things that have happened that change you. Things that suddenly redefine who you are at your very core. You can’t explain what it has been like. Trying to put the experience into words that do any real justice is impossible. For me… Continue reading Sunshine And Hurricanes
I write often about the struggles that come with being a grieving mother. The loss of my daughter can be all consuming. Especially this time of year as we rapidly approach the anniversary of Olivia’s death. But what I don’t talk about very often is the incredible toll the loss of Olivia has taken on… Continue reading To My Broken Hearted Boy
Before my only daughter was diagnosed with brain cancer at 4 months old I couldn’t have cared less about pediatric cancer. Sure, it was sad. But it was rare. I didn’t know anyone personally who had dealt with pediatric cancer in their family so I had no reason to get behind the cause. My daughter,… Continue reading This Is Why Pediatric Cancer Matters