I turned 30 on Sunday. This bigger birthday has caused me to take a step back and look at my life and how it looks drastically different then I expected it to. In some ways that’s a beautiful thing. And in others it’s very sad. When I turned 20 and imagined my life as a… Continue reading Here’s To 30
People ask me all the time how I’ve been able to survive the loss of my only daughter. While my faith in God is a huge part of my survival and peace, I am also certain that the biggest reason I am still standing is that God had also given me Olivia’s twin brother, Wyatt.… Continue reading He Saved Me
The past 6 years have been a rollercoaster that has completely changed who I am as a person. What began as a rather shaky faith in God has morphed into a full belief that has shaped my very being. I wish I could say that faith came easily. But it has been through trial and… Continue reading Even If
Wyatt has wanted to talk about his sister a lot lately. He has so many questions about what happened and why she can’t be here with us. We drive past the oncology center where she received treatment often and every time he wants me to remember that sissy was treated there. He misses her so much… Continue reading Why Mommy?
I’ve made it through another Mother’s Day. That might seem like a weird thing to say, but the truth is, Mother’s Day has been pretty awful for me since I lost Olivia. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I don’t love her brothers, but it’s hard to be happy on this day when one… Continue reading Being Her Mommy
The day my daughter died I forever became a grieving mother. I never wanted that title. And it isn’t something I would wish on anyone else. Even though I knew Olivia wasn’t going to make it, nothing prepared me for the night she took her last breath. To see this tiny human I had… Continue reading The Grieving Mother
Grief is a messy business. It’s emotionally draining, sometimes lonely, and often awkward. Losing my daughter has not only changed me drastically; it has also changed my relationships with everyone in my life. It has shown me the true colors of so many, both in good ways and in not so good ways. I’ve had people… Continue reading Friendship And Grief